Posted by Anonymous on 2015/07/12 under Uncategorized It’s crazy what happen to me. It’s like my world changed again. One year ago my life looked so clear. I partied and had friends. It started slowly. I got scared of getting sick. I cried myself to sleep thinking I’ll never wake up again. I was scared to die. I drank a lot everyday for so long. But then I got scared. I stopped eating and only ate rice with soup everyday. People thought I was taking drugs because of my weight loss. Day after day passed and I thought of new sicknesses often. Not a day passed without thinking if death. It was living in a bubble. You fear the night, it’s darkness and silence. Time passed and I learned to control myself more. But then he disappeared one of my dogs. It makes me broken again falling crying to the ground. Not a night after that sleeping with my other dog have I slept a whole night without worries. My first dog died during the night next to me and I got waken up being told he’s dead. My fear for sleeping got worse. I check the breathing of my dog now every night. I see other people living this easy life with no worries and I’m living in my bubble. It feels like I can’t succeed. My best friend told me that I betrayed her, that I left her for a guy. It broke me. I had so much on my mind thinking about dying that I forgot other people. Now I can’t speak the same to her anymore. Everything has changed. It’s not us anymore and because of this I lost my best friend. I have no one. I destroyed myself. She didn’t want to be only me anymore and I felt all alone. It’s all my fault. I’m scared and alone. I need help.